Rascalmyshadow Posted August 6, 2022 Share Posted August 6, 2022 (edited) I have written and rewritten this post multiple times and am still struggling to write it. For the last couple of months Rascal has been losing condition and showing a range of unexplained symptoms, after multiple blood tests and finally an ultrasound early in the week we have been given a devastating diagnosis, he has a huge cancerous mass on his spleen, it’s inoperable and with the results of his bloods the vets believe it is affecting his bone marrow and is in his lymph nodes, at best he only has weeks left at worst it could rupture at anytime which would mean instant collapse and death. we have started palliative care to keep him as comfortable as possible, he is unable to eat full meals without vomiting due to the amount of space the tumour is taking up in his abdominal area so I’m hand feeding lots of small meals each day. He has moments of bouncing around happily but due to the anaemia he wears out extremely fast. I have taken Tue off and I am going to take him for a drive to the beach where we used to live, it was his favourite place before we moved and then a stop in for one last visit at my husbands parents as he has always loved going there since he was a puppy and they will have the chance to say goodbye. Its his 13th birthday on the 29th of Aug, we were planning on having a special day for him but I don’t think we’re going to get that opportunity. He has been by my side for 12 1/2 years, he always came to work with me before I started working from home so the only time we’ve been separated is when I’ve been in hospital, I’m trying to stay strong and not get emotional as I know it upsets him but it is so so hard. The rest of our pack clearly know he isn’t well and the dynamics have changed, Maisie our little chi seems to be the one that is mostly by his side, although they don’t play together and he’s never shown much interest in her (Abby and Abby’s daughter Mia are the two he adores and mostly interacts with) she seems to understand he’s very unwell. Edited August 6, 2022 by Rascalmyshadow 11 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted August 6, 2022 Share Posted August 6, 2022 Oh I am so very sorry the little man is so very unwell. You must be shattered- I know how very close you are . Know I'm thinking of you ... 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deeds Posted August 6, 2022 Share Posted August 6, 2022 I had to do this about a year ago and it broke my heart . This dog was a rehome and quickly became my heart dog. Even though it's a year since he went I still miss him and think of him every day.. You are in my thoughts at this sad time. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
moosmum Posted August 7, 2022 Share Posted August 7, 2022 Oh, thats sad news. So sorry for this..... My Moss went the same way. Impossible to wrap your head around the knowing. Hugs to you both. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kazm Posted August 7, 2022 Share Posted August 7, 2022 So sorry to hear your terrible news. Sounds exactly how my Zena was. It’s so difficult. Spend some extra special days with him. Take care. Xx 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BDJ Posted August 8, 2022 Share Posted August 8, 2022 No words except so sorry, it is a horrible situation. It is wonderful that he is surrounded by love (2 and 4 legged) and he still has good days - but from experience I know that it is both bittersweet and heartbreaking at the same time, so at the moment it is just crushing 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~Anne~ Posted August 8, 2022 Share Posted August 8, 2022 I’m so sorry. It’s a hard time for you all. We experienced very similar with Boofy. We also took him to his favourite beach for one last walk in the sand. His little belly was very swollen and he waddled along slowly, but his eyes lit up and I know he enjoyed it. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tassie Posted August 8, 2022 Share Posted August 8, 2022 Such a very sad time. But I reallu like your plan .. and admire you for the decision to let him go earlier rather than later, hard as that is. Extra hugs for my two in Rascal's honour. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rascalmyshadow Posted August 10, 2022 Author Share Posted August 10, 2022 We never made it to the beach yesterday, I knew he wasn’t good and I was too worried he wouldn’t cope with the long car ride so instead we went to the local park where he’s enjoyed most of his daily walks (before he got sick) he pottered around happily marking every tree, my mother in law came down and got to see him and say goodbye, as did my mum on Sunday. Last night he refused to eat and the same this morning, I knew it was time, called the vets but he collapsed before we got there, he perked up for a couple of mins after they put the cannula in, just long enough to say good bye and now he’s gone. Taken this morning not long before he collapsed, he was on my bed with my two daughters and then spent his final moments in my arms both at home and at the vets. Thank you everyone for the support, we have had many losses but this has been the hardest and I’ll always feel like the luckiest person to have had him be part of our lives. 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BDJ Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 sending virtual hugs 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kazm Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 Really sorry to hear the little guy is gone. Shame he never got to the beach but I reckon he knew without a doubt how much his family loved him. Take care. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 So sorry he's gone now- and you didn't get to carry out your plan He went well loved and in your arms- all he ever knew 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~Anne~ Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 Oh, no. I’m so sorry. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadWoofter Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 Sorry to hear this Rascal. Sending virtual hugs 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Papillon Kisses Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 Sorry for your loss. He was a special little man. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tassie Posted August 10, 2022 Share Posted August 10, 2022 Peeing on every tree at the park .... sounds like a pretty good substitute for the beach. and surrounded by love -- there are worse ways to go .. for him it was a gentle passing ... for you ... a big gap in the family, but beautiful memories of a special boy. Condolences to you all. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kirislin Posted August 11, 2022 Share Posted August 11, 2022 Only just seen your post. I’m so sorry. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Animal House Posted August 14, 2022 Share Posted August 14, 2022 I'm so sorry you lost your little man, he went with lots of love, safe in your arms, like going to sleep. I'm tearing up writing this as I had to do this for my girl just over 3 years ago, and being my heart dog, it was so hard. But I'm so lucky to have had her in my life, as I know you were with Rascal. Big hugs for you and the family. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grumpette Posted August 14, 2022 Share Posted August 14, 2022 I am so very sorry that Rascal has now passed. I know he has left you and your family with amazing memories and a piece of your heart missing. RIP you little Rascal 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
firefly Posted October 8, 2022 Share Posted October 8, 2022 i know this pain too, my sheltie was only 3.5 yrs old and suddenly stopped eating and was diagnosed with lymphoma cancer and weeks to live. absolutely shattering it was and it was only this year in march. 1 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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