Edit:  He is gone. It was as peaceful and as calm as it could have been.        Warning. Long & rambly.   So I know only we can make this choice, but im so torn. Its 1am. We've been up since 12. Is it the 6th night this week weve  been up with sundowners/ night terrors this week.    Im so lost. I keep thinking its time to PTS and wondering if im making a hasty decision and wondering if Im simply keeping him here for me.    In the harshest of