luvmybulldog Posted June 4, 2016 Share Posted June 4, 2016 You were always just here and now you're not and there is just a huge big hole and I can't stop crying. You're not following me around the house from room to room and you're not on my lap on the couch and you're not snuffling around the garden anymore chasing whatever moves and I can never hold you again, you're just not here and nothing will ever be the same. You bought the fun to the house and you were the buffer between the two girls and now it's just too quiet and too empty without you. You taught me so many things from the day you came home with me, I'd lost both Dozer and my Dad a few months before and you were going to help me get through but you were such an independent tiny little thing and I had to work so hard getting you to even like me. I thought you would be all bouncy and snuggly and a typical puppy but not you, you were such a serious, independent and aloof little guy that I thought I'd made the wrong choice. It made it all the harder to watch when you would see my (step) Dad and would go absolutely crazy bonkers to be all over him. You occupied my time so much with all the trying to understand why you weren't what I thought you'd be and trying to turn you into what I wanted you to be and I was so busy trying it took my mind away from the losses I'd had. I used to kiss you goodnight every night when you were on the end of my bed and ask you for a kiss back and it took you two years to walk up to my pillow where you stood and looked at me and when I said kiss you made me cry when you leaned in and licked me for the very first time. We've had years of kisses from then and I thought we would still have years more and now you're just not here for me to cuddle and keep warm and safe and I'm just completely broken. My beautiful special little boy with the gorgeous wise old man eye's - everyone who met you loved you but no one loved you more than I do and I miss you and I just wish you were still here Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scottsmum Posted June 4, 2016 Share Posted June 4, 2016 I couldn't read that the whole way through But i am so sorry for your loss Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JayGee Posted June 4, 2016 Share Posted June 4, 2016 I'm so sorry for your loss. I could hear your total love and devotion in the words that you wrote. He looked like a beautiful whiskery boy. He was lucky to have you in his life as well. ???? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boronia Posted June 4, 2016 Share Posted June 4, 2016 Tears in my eyes. I am so sorry, what a lovely boy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mjosa Posted June 4, 2016 Share Posted June 4, 2016 Such love and devotion from both sides (eventually after two years), when your heart dog goes to the bridge they take a big bit of us with them. Fly precious boy to the and big to you at this sad time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
westiemum Posted June 4, 2016 Share Posted June 4, 2016 Gee they leave such big holes for little dogs. RIP special boy - Mac will show you the ropes. Big hugs lmb. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
julesluvscavs Posted June 5, 2016 Share Posted June 5, 2016 My heart goes out for you x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Animal House Posted June 5, 2016 Share Posted June 5, 2016 Your love for your special little boy shows so much in this post, I'm so sorry for your loss. Run free at the bridge little one Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
luvmybulldog Posted June 5, 2016 Author Share Posted June 5, 2016 I know everyone on here understands how I'm feeling right now and I thank you all for your kind words and thoughts for me and Hoover. My little guy made such a huge impact in my life and at the moment everything just feels so wrong. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stellnme Posted June 5, 2016 Share Posted June 5, 2016 A beautiful tribute to your boy, luvmybulldog. Sleep well, little one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Papillon Kisses Posted June 5, 2016 Share Posted June 5, 2016 Sorry for your loss. x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Loving my Oldies Posted June 5, 2016 Share Posted June 5, 2016 Deepest condolences, luvmybulldog. Your little Hoover sounds a real character and you obviously had a huge amount of love for each other. :rainbowbridge: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MelissaS Posted June 5, 2016 Share Posted June 5, 2016 So sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rayhay Posted June 8, 2016 Share Posted June 8, 2016 So very sorry. Just heartbreaking. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MadWoofter Posted June 9, 2016 Share Posted June 9, 2016 So sorry for your loss. Those heartfelt words are beautiful. Big hugs to you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
poochmad Posted June 9, 2016 Share Posted June 9, 2016 He sounded like he had great character and what a cutie! So very sorry for your loss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
coogie Posted June 11, 2016 Share Posted June 11, 2016 I am so sorry, I just saw this because I hardly ever come here ( too gutless) and I haven't been at the park much. They are never with us for long enough, you could tell how much he meant to you whenever you spoke about him. Sending peace and strength. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Isabel964 Posted June 25, 2016 Share Posted June 25, 2016 Oh my, so many tears I have reading through your post. How beautifully written, how much of a big story, so much you tell in just one post. I am so sorry for your loss, what a beautiful special boy and a huge loss. Time will heal and he will forever be part of you. What a special time you had together. in this life. Big hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
luvmybulldog Posted June 2, 2017 Author Share Posted June 2, 2017 One year today since I had to say goodbye to you my gorgeous little man. I can't believe how fast the time has gone. I wish I could have had some time to get my head around saying goodbye before you had to go, it all just felt so rushed and I wasn't ready and I just wanted the clock to stop for a while so I could come to some acceptance of what needed to be done. Most of all I wish I could go back and have an outcome that would have you still here with me today. Things are just so different here without you, and I'm still struggling especially at night. I miss absolutely everything you bought to the house, you were such a quirky little character, the smallest of the pack with the biggest presence and me and the girls just haven't been the same since. Tonight I will sit out with you under the bedroom window and try to open the letter that the vet sent me after I lost you but I still don't know if I can face that. I hope you are up there watching over us knowing how much we all miss you and waiting till we can all be together again. So until then, play nicely up there with all the other special furry and feathered ones - I love you Hoover my special little boy - kiss kiss. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mjosa Posted June 2, 2017 Share Posted June 2, 2017 So hard when they go and still heartbreaking on the anniversary of them going to the 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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