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kendall

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Goodbye my handsome boy :laugh:

I can't believe you are gone. You weren't supposed to go like this - ACD's live forever and you were only 8 :D It would have been your 9th birthday next month, still young.

I am sorry I didn't know you had the tumours on your liver and spleen - you never showed any signs of illness, such a stoic boy. All of this just happened so quick, it is just hard to process that you were here one minute and gone the next ;)

I should have done more for you in life and with this horrible illness. More walks, more time. So caught up in the crappiness of life but you were always there with your smiling face.

I have so many memories.

Seeing you at K9 as a 9 week old puppy - you were the most gorgeous little thing. There was a lot of interest in you but as soon as people were told you were deaf the interest stopped. I couldn't bear to see you stuck in kennels for the rest of your life, so you came home with me at 11 weeks. You learned my made up sign for 'sit' that first day home :D I bought a book from America to learn how to train you and scoured the internet for tips. We made up our own signs for you and you were sucha fast learner. We never did master 'stay' though did we?!

Being deaf was not a problem. You always seemed to sense when I came outside. Always a smiling face when I woke you up. Going for walks with neighbourhood dogs rushing at fences was interesting - you couldn't hear them so they weren't there :) Slept like a baby through thunderstorms and fireworks. Onlyone real time you gave me a fright and that was when you were young and I took you to the beach and let you off your lead. you chased a seagull down the beach but stopped about 200m away and checked back on me - I did my long distance 'come' sign and you came barrelling back to me! I was so proud that you did that but I was scared it wouldn't happen so well next time so you weren't allowed off lead again ;)

you loved your black kong - I remember you throwing it around by yourself and you loved to chase it around the backyard. You loved soft toys and bedding, too but eating it was not such a good idea. I bragged about you never cocking your leg or humping anything when people whinged about boy dogs - you were so good like that (well except for Amber's 2nd last season when 'hormones/instinct' got the better of you! You both looked so shocked!)

You were so good with Amber coming into your life when you were a pretty unsocialised 6 year old dog. SHe took over the role of protector but I always felt safe with you in the yard - I knew you would look after us. You had different barks for different situations and i could always tell what was happening just by listening to you - I never mastered that art with my kids, but with you I just knew instantly. You were good with the kids too - you never jumped on them, the adult were a different story! but you weren't a nippy dog at all. I remember being told that ACD's weren't good around kids blah blah blah but you were.

When you got out that time I was beside myself. I drove around for hours, calling vet clinics. When I rang the pound and they said that the dog i was describing sounded like one they ahd there I was so happy. I had to wait til the next day to get you and i remember hearing your 'where are you' bark as i walked up to the building. Such a relief and I knew instantly it was you. I was so worried about you.

I don't know why you prefered to be outside, you never seemed comfortable in the house. I am sorry that we didn't spend more time one on one with you, there is so much I could have done better. A lot of guilt for not doing things better with you, I know that is a 'stage' but doesn't make it easier. you were loved Diesel, as long as you know that.

good bye my boy - wait for me at the bridge xxx

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Cockerlover

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;) Dont beat yrself up Kendall ,we can only do our best @ the time ,Im sure diesel knew how much you loved & respected him & he u ,Run free diesel,Chase all those seagulls, yr of lead now .

watch over yr loved ones, till u meet again .

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kendall

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Thank you. I went to work today - probably should have stayed home but I needed to keep busy. It didn't really help, I spent the whole drive there in tears and half the day ;) Very sad coming home and not seeing him there. Everyone is being a lot more smoochy - they know :grouphug:

deep breath.....

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RIP Diesel ;)

Don't blame yourself. Diesel wouldn't want you to feel guilty.

ACD's are such a tough dog. My cattle girl is the same. So sooky in some ways but such strong buggers in other ways. My girl is amazing with children as well :grouphug:

Diesel, look after your family while playing at the bridge. Such a handsome boy. Rest easy mate.

Take care.

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RIP Diesel. Run free at the :laugh:

Kendall, I'm sorry for your loss. You gave Diesel 8 wonderful years :laugh: Don't beat yourself up about it. You gave Diesel a chance when no-one else would!!! You gave him so much love over the years and I am positive that he will be keeping an eye on you and your family from above

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Sounds like Diesel did things 'his' way....he obviously found joy in being outside- some dogs are wired like that. You gave many things to Diesel...a home, understanding and the freedom to live life as he wished. He knew he was loved the day you brought him home....and knew this every day after. Yes 8 yrs is young, but fate can be like that sometimes,,,,but how precious was his eight years loved by someione who understood his needs! Run free Diesel-

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I am sure that your boy knew just how much you cared for and loved him!

You let him spend the time he loved outside - now that is really understanding him and caring for him!

His face? Wow, what a beautiful smile!

Take care and know that we understand how hard this is and what you are going through.

Kerry

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kendall

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You have made me cry again guys with your lovely words, but they are also happy tears. He was a beautiful, happy, clever boy and will never be forgotten. It was right that he came to us, we are his family.

Thank you all for your thoughts. It's nice to know that we feel the same way about these beautiful souls.

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Kendall so sorry to see you have lost your beautiful companion, it just doesn't seem fair that our beloved pets have such a short life on this earth, compaired to us humans, but at least he was very much loved by you.

love and hugs to you.

lablove

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