Miss You Jack

[fancyfeathers]

I miss him so much. He came into my life 7 years ago. I saw his mug shot on the pound page and it was love at first sight. Unfortunately I was looking for a missing dog at the time so left him there for two weeks before ringing them up to find out how long he had left. When they told me he was being put down in 2 days I went in and bought him home.

We bonded immediately. He was very timid and frightened of other people but glued himself to my hip from day one. By the time he died he trusted me completely, loved meeting new people and was so well balanced, however a little on the obsessive compulsive side, but what do you expect from a working dog, not working. He herded the birds around the house and was fixated on the birds in the aviaries.

Our relationship was so special. I must have known somewhere inside that our time together would be short. Daily I would look down at him trotting by my heels on our walks and telling that he was never allowed to leave me. Anyway took him into the vet to see if he had a grass seed in his nasal cavity. Vet rang to say there was a large mass in there and he would need to see the specialist. Three operations later and only four weeks and the aggressive cancer had taken him to a point where I couldnt let him go on. So 8.30am on tuesday before christmas I took him in, sat on the floor with him, he gave me a huge lick on the face then dropped.

I had to go to work that morning and 20 minutes later groom my first dog for the day and somehow get through 8 more. That was the hardest week I think Ive ever had. Had to put it all behind me and had a bit of a delayed reaction. Last groom Christmas eve, half an hour or so to go before we closed up for the xmas holiday, the tears started coming and dont think theyve stopped. I had him cremated and when it is my turn I want to be cremated with my dogs in boxes and be scattered somewhere with them. Hopefully I will end up with them for eternity.

My heart is broken I miss you so much. You were my little white angel. I would do anything to have another day with you. But I guess I will have to wait a bit longer but you better be waiting for me. Damn that cancer! It was too soon! I miss you and love you so much!

I think he is still with me, and usually at Woolies for some reason. Not long after he died, I went shopping and got teary and stopped where I was, shut my eyes and had a cry, I looked up and the very first thing I saw was a coffee mug with a border collie with a pink rose in his mouth, the next time I went in same thing again, got teary stopped, shut my eyes, opened them and a packet of "Jacks" chips stared straight back at me. Silly I know, but I'll take it as a sign he is still watching over me.

Edited February 9, 2010 by fancyfeathers

[LoveMyDals]

A beautiful tribute fancyfeathers.

RIP handsome Buddy. :D

[poochmad]

So sorry about your loss.

Run free Buddy.