pawbus Posted December 4, 2004 Share Posted December 4, 2004 A week ago, with a broken heart we had to say a crushing goodbye to my 2 beautiful 18 year old cats. Shelly our little persian had been going in the back legs over the past 3 months and selfishly we kept saying "she's" O.k she isn't ready to go yet. She struggled to get around and the vet kept saying she is not in pain, just frustrated because she can't get around as quickly as she used to. She was just so affectionate and a little bit dopey. she used to love chasing butterflys and moths. They used to land on her head and she used to look for them as if to say "If I get hold of you,your history! and the thing used to be on top of her head like a moth hat. God I miss her! Bindi was equally as gorgeous. She never had a mean bone her little body. She got sick about 2 months ago and we thought that she was stressed about when we bought Zoe the dobe home from Blacktown pound. After being with the vet for almost three weeks,( and after having the vet fall head over heals in love with her)we discovered she had intestinal cancer. After a lot of tears and sleepless nights we decided to go with chemo. Our vet is just the most amazing man. He used to ring us before he left the surgery, usually at around 9pm to let us know that she was doing fine and that he had given her a brush and a kiss( She loved him just as much so it was so comforting to know that she was with him and being looked after like she was his). He even took her for the weekend so we could go away for the weekend and try to rest a bit. We were so exhausted, but it didn't matter because we would do anything for Bin. We even had a tree fall on our house while we were away. After 10 days of a 14 day treatment of the first round of chemo, her white cell count was good and she was going along well. she didn't have much energy but she used to try so hard to be our little girl. always with a purr and a meow. On Wednesday last week our vet had a dream that something was wrong with her but only told my husband, because he knew I would fret about it. On Thursday she became dissorientated and stumbled around a bit. Friday morning when my husband took her to the vet for her daily checkup, he was home within 20 minutes. His eyes were red and swollen, he couldn't even talk. worst of all he had bindi in his arms and just managed to get the words out that the cancer had spread to her brain and that Russell the vet had to come out to the house and put her to sleep.We decided to send Bindi and shelly together so at least they would have each other. I am still numb I feel like I can't breath. I just want them back. Why did they have to go? My heart hurts so much. I couldn't be in the room when Russell the vet arrived at the house. He was too upset. The strange and sought of nice thing is my husband was holding bindi and Russell gave her a kiss and said goodbye to her and she died before he put the needle into her leg. We think she was waiting for him. It is so unfair she fought so hard to stay. Life will never be the same without you in it girls I miss you so much. I wish you didn't have to leave. you were suppose to live forever. I love you. Goodbye Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest LittlePixie Posted December 4, 2004 Share Posted December 4, 2004 I'm so sorry about Bindi and Shelly. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bundyburger Posted December 4, 2004 Share Posted December 4, 2004 RIP gorgeous cats... it sounds like you were well loved. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bindo Posted December 4, 2004 Share Posted December 4, 2004 Such a sad story - I am so sorry for you. At least they're together in sleep. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fido Posted December 4, 2004 Share Posted December 4, 2004 Thinking of you at this sad time....sending you lots of hugs. Fido. :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melree Posted December 4, 2004 Share Posted December 4, 2004 My thoughts are with you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted December 5, 2004 Share Posted December 5, 2004 Thinking of you....we love our cats too.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mita Posted December 5, 2004 Share Posted December 5, 2004 So sorry for your loss of Bindi & Shelly. They were much, much loved & you gave them a wonderful life... and every care when age & illness came. Thinking of you,. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Elise Posted December 5, 2004 Share Posted December 5, 2004 I am so very sorry for your double loss Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jemappelle Posted December 5, 2004 Share Posted December 5, 2004 I'm so sorry for your tragic loss. Cats are beautiful creatures and yours will live on in your memories. God's Garden God looked around his garden and found an empty place. He then looked down upon the earth and saw your tired face. He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest. God's garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, he knew you were in pain. He knew that you would never get well on this earth again. He saw the road was getting rough and the hills were hard to climb. So he closed your weary eyelids and whispered "Peace be thine". It broke our hearts to lose you but you didn't go alone. For part of us went with you, the day God called you home. Author Unknown Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pawbus Posted December 5, 2004 Author Share Posted December 5, 2004 Thankyou so much for your kind words. I have been trying to hold it together over the last week and have been really struggling. Most of my family and friends don't understand whats its like to be overwhelmed with love for an animal. When I told them that we had decided to have chemo for bindi, the first reaction was" how much is that going to cost?" And whenever they come to my house the dissaproving look I used to get when they saw shelly walk made me feel like I was always doing the wrong thing. With shelly maybe we were. I don't know? I think wishful thinking always hoped that I would just get up one morning and that at 18 she would go in her sleep so we wouldn't have to make that painful decision. with Bin it was just such a shock, she was so healthy. Her blood tests when she first got sick had her listed as an 8 year old, not an eighteen year old. It goes to show that cancer doesn't discriminate. It helps me alot to know that there are others out there that are also just so in love with their little four legged family members, and that I am not ever being judged because I am absolutely heart broken over losing something so precious to me. I hate it when, and I have already heard it. "Just go and get another couple, you'll be right in a couple of days. Anyway I won't ramble on any more. I just thought that I would let you know how much your messages have meant to me. And also the beautiful poem. Thankyou everyone. I know they say that time heals, but why does time seem to go so slow when you are grieving? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
V.A.H. Posted December 6, 2004 Share Posted December 6, 2004 I'm very very sorry for your loss, and hope God will keep you and help you to remember the lovely times of the past with your pets! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iceni Posted December 6, 2004 Share Posted December 6, 2004 Pawbus: so sorry to hear of your double tragedy, its little comfort I know but those of us who have walked a mile in your shoes over the years share and know your pain. Time does slowly heal, it is the pain that makes us remember those that we have loved and lost and never forget them Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tornado Posted December 7, 2004 Share Posted December 7, 2004 Big ((((HUGS)))) to you. You gave them a wonderful life. You can tell by the love they gave you in return... Lynne. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
quesada Posted December 9, 2004 Share Posted December 9, 2004 Sorry to hear about the loss and heartbreak you are feeling now...big hugs to you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BubbleGirl Posted December 11, 2004 Share Posted December 11, 2004 I know it is of absolutely no consolation, but the fact that you had TWO not ONE beautiful fur babies live to the ripe old age of 18 is an absolute credit to you. Your dedication to their medical treatment and all you did to try and ease their pain is pure love. When I lost my cat when I was 19 years old, my Mum and Dad bought me a kitten for my birthday to try and console my grief (their hearts were in the right place), I couldn't even look at it let alone touch it, I know this sounds bizzare from an animal lover but I just couldn't. She ended up Mum's cat and when Mum lost her she understood why I couldn't bond with another so soon so I totally understand how frustrating and hurtful it must be for people to think that the two greatest loves of your life, Bindi and Shelly, could be replaced ;) . What a glorious reunion when you get to , I hope that brings you some comfort. Take Care Riles Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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