shaw0090 Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 This has taken me just under a week to even be able to come back to this site. Last Wednesday, at approximately 5.30 pm, Sandy, my Jimmer Man, my Pooter, was PTS. Her kidneys were failing and it was just too much for her. I regret letting her get so bad as she did. After 16.5 years together, and having had her since I was ten, I just couldn't imagine how I was supposed to manage without her. It turns out that I'm not. That day broke me. My dad had to take her off me, because I was literally hysterical. I couldn't go with her, because I was hyperventilating into a paper bag. I miss her so desperately that I can't believe it. I miss the sound of her little feet on our floor. Her snoring, which usually meant the TV had to be blaring. I miss her little nose that used to stick out from whatever she was sleeping under or behind. I miss her little face. I can't look at her photos yet, because it's killing me. I'm telling myself she had a good last day. She was very, very ill, but still happy enough to eat (the anti-seizure medication made her ravenous). She had a cheeseburger and chicken nuggets from McDonalds, a roll of liverwurst, and some tins of her favourite tinned foods. I miss her so much. I cannot fathom how much. It's only when you sit and write something like this that you realise that words really aren't enough. My Jimmer Man, my Pooter, my Jim, my Oona, my Binky Bum, my Crazy Old Bastard, my Stinky Monkey, My Hairy Piggy, and all the other nicknames, is gone. And so is a major part of me. Thanks to those of you who read this. I appreciate the opportunity to express my sorrow to those who would have an idea of what I'm going through. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Longclaw Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 I'm so terribly sorry Shaw Rest in peace little one, and know that you were much loved Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3dogsnight Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 Sorry for your loss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
springdog Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 So sorry RIP Sandy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MiniMum Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 I'm so sorry Shaw RIP Sandy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Clover Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 Oh Shaw i am so sorry hun . Rest easy Sandy . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest PixieOfWrath Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 I'm so sorry for your loss... we all know how it feels Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
berty Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 its been 3 weeks since my girl went to sleep in my arms , i know the pain rip sandy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Silverblue Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 Too sad for me, your words show just how much you loved her & I am sure she knows it, it is the hardest thing we can do for our mates. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bilbo Baggins Posted March 3, 2009 Share Posted March 3, 2009 Shaw RIP Sandy Fly free Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mona Posted March 4, 2009 Share Posted March 4, 2009 I am so sorry Shaw - I understand your pain, as would nearly everyone on this site Take time and look after yourself RIP Sandy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dogbesotted Posted March 4, 2009 Share Posted March 4, 2009 be at peace sweet sandy. my condolances on your sorrow shaw.. the memories that you and sandy made over those years together will help heal your heart.. Helen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3shepherds Posted March 4, 2009 Share Posted March 4, 2009 RIP Sandy - running free :rolleyes: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OMD² Posted March 6, 2009 Share Posted March 6, 2009 I am so very sorry for your loss :rolleyes: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shaw0090 Posted March 7, 2009 Author Share Posted March 7, 2009 Thank you so very much everyone. I'm still gutted, but her little face is too special to not share. Part of why it was such a difficult decision is her toughness. She had a stroke in 2004, and the vet was not hopeful at all. My Jimmer Man kept on going. I think mostly, she fought on for food. In her last week she put on 1KG! :cool: The anti-seizure medication gave her a hell of an appetite. About a month ago: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Longclaw Posted March 7, 2009 Share Posted March 7, 2009 Gosh, what a little cutie! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shaw0090 Posted March 10, 2009 Author Share Posted March 10, 2009 Ashes are coming home today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shaw0090 Posted March 13, 2009 Author Share Posted March 13, 2009 Sorry everyone. I'm bumping this because I can't bear to see it slip down the page. I apologise. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bozthepup Posted March 13, 2009 Share Posted March 13, 2009 rest peacefully Sandy, condolences Shaw, remember and rejoice in all the happy times, quirks and things that made Sandy such an enormous part of your life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
labsrule Posted March 13, 2009 Share Posted March 13, 2009 So sorry for your loss of your beautiful Sandy :) and I know you are so heartbroken to lose your loving and devoted companion and friend of over 16 years . She lived a great long life and has left you with such cherished, lifelong memories and will be forever in your heart Time will heal the pain of your loss, but never remove the memories of your Sandy as they will be forever etched into your heart and mind. RIP Sandy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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