mischief_maker Posted September 6, 2004 Share Posted September 6, 2004 Today is my birthday. I turned 24. My dogs Mischief turned 11 and my other dog Speely turned 3. Though tonight I am the only one sitting here. I had to take both of them to my vet and have them put down. The empty hole, the pain I'm feeling.... I hate it. Its a long explanation and I have to share it even if no-one reads it. Mischief started going a little 'dottie' about a year ago. Getting a little snappy, even tho he has always been snappy. Bad habits are sometimes often hard to break. He bit my mum about 6 months ago when she was trying to get him outside. No indication he would, he just did. My mum was going to put him down but we couldn't bring ourselves to do it. Speel on the other hand has been definately thrown a bad deal since he was a pup. I bought both my dogs from the RSPCA. By 2 months of age, we knew he had the worst hip displacia the vet had ever seen. We were told he would need a operation when he was about 2. Up until then, no running around. How do you keep an active pup from not running around with another dog?!! Last year he had a tick that just about killed him. He had the life saving serum injected into him and i slept with him for 3 days straight until he was back on his feet. Later last year he was laying asleep and woke up and peed himself, starting barking furiously and wouldn't let anyone near him. He was diagnosed with Epilepsy. To top it all off he developed hot spots and sores all over him. So he was on tablets, and covered in lotion most of the time. But apart from all of this, he remained an active dog that just hated men and would bail up any stranger. In the last week we have received 2 written complaints from neighbours due to mischies' excessive barking in the morning when my mum leaves for work. She's left the radio on, she's left the garage open for them to sleep in and has even tried an electric collar to no avail. We have a cranky neighbour to our left who has been complaining for the last 3 months. We have tried so many different things but nothing would stop him from stressing out. We then heard of Bark Busters and had them booked in for this wednesday. That was until yesterday. My mum was at work and I dont live at home so the dogs were there by themselves. THey managed to get out 'somehow' and were bailing up anyone who walked up or down the road. The council dog catchers were called and finally put them in their car just as my mum was returning from work. We still dont know if they actually bit anyone. I dont believe they did. So we made the decision to have them both put down. If only we lived out on acerage so that they could have lived the rest of their lives in peace. If only we were given a bit more time to try and overcome so many obstacles that both dogs were facing. I just feel like i've made the worst mistake of my life and my babies have paid for it. But then i think 'what if they bit a child if they escaped one day'. Speel would have been operated on sooner then later for his legs. But they were both still happy. Just so many problems. I feel so horrible, so lonely. Mischief spent 11 years of his life by my side. Speel spent 3. When does this feeling go away? I just want to run back to the vet and make them wake up and take them away somewhere where they cant bother anyone and they can just get old together with me. I wish. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ricey Posted September 6, 2004 Share Posted September 6, 2004 Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! Hey, Mischief maker, I feel for you. Peter D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted September 6, 2004 Share Posted September 6, 2004 :D I'm sorry you're hurting........You will probably do so for quite a while...you have to heal, and it takes time. Look after yourself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
foxy0711 Posted September 6, 2004 Share Posted September 6, 2004 Mischeif Maker you are in my thoughts and prayers at this sad time. I know that pain you are feeling as I had to put down my beloved Abby a short while ago and to this day that pain is still there. I believe the pain of missing her always will be. I can assure you though that it slowly gets easier to deal with and the pain the memories bring you slowly turn to happiness as you remember all the wonderful times you and your babies shared with each other. Sometimes I still have to pinch myself and tell myself that Abby is gone, i too just want to run back to the vets and somehow wake her up. The hardest part is missing her and constantly reminding myself that she is really gone so I completley understand what you are going through right now. I believe that you did what was best for Mischeif and Speely and they are now in a place where they can run free. Hugs :D to you through this tough time and know that things will get better. RIP Mischeif and Speely Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mischief_maker Posted September 6, 2004 Author Share Posted September 6, 2004 Thankyou soooooo much *Tears* Its wonderful people like you that help people like me get through the day. My eyes are so puffy this morning as I didn't get much sleep. I know time will pass and it will somehow get better. I wrapped my partners dog up in mischief and speely's blankets last night. It was so hard as they still smell like them. Every little thing reminds me of them. I just have to keep telling myself that they are in a place where they can run free and have no health problems. Thankyou. At least I know that there are quite a few of us who are travelling down the same track at the moment. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
InspectorRex Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 Know how you feel as it is only 2mths since we had to farewell our 9mth old baby Fergie.It bloody hurts. It is hard enough with an old dog but a young one , well it is the pits. Your furkids are now free from any pain or suffering and are watching over you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tornado Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 ((HUGS)) to you mischief. Keep your head up. They knew you loved them. Lynne. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mischief_maker Posted September 7, 2004 Author Share Posted September 7, 2004 *hugs again to everyone* I took my partner's dog Jessie (staffy x) to the beach today. Its only a 2 min drive from home and I used to take Mischief and Speely there often on weekends. Would pick them up from Mum's and take them for an outing. THey would run about. Mischief would go lay in the water whilst speel ran around like a nutter. Sitting on the beach in the sand watching jessie dig holes to china, was nice. I reminded myself of all the good times. Tried to keep telling myself the choice i made was the right one. I hope they have found kitty heaven and are having a ball running around after them all ! My other little kitten will be up there too so i told speel to look out for her. Are there support groups for people who have lost a beloved pet? hehe. My thoughts are with everyone who is going through the same thing right now. I just found out a friend of mine also had to put his dog down yesterday. Hopefully he meets up with mine and they all become friends. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
foxy0711 Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 There is a site that someone referred me to called www.petloss.com It is a support site for those who have lost their pets. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fido Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 Sending special thoughts your way, Mischief Maker....what a tough decision to make, but under the circumstances, the right one. I hope the pain eases soon. Take care, Fido. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mischief_maker Posted September 7, 2004 Author Share Posted September 7, 2004 Rainbow Bridge Thanks to foxy for sending me the link to Petloss.com *hugs* I just found this beautiful flash animation. I'm on cable so not i'm not to sure how long it will take on dial-up but worth the wait. Make sure your sound is on and up. xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest scouser Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 I ma so sorry for you - what a hard decision to make - it is six months since i had to have Amber put to sleep because of cancer and I still cry for her every day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tybrax Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 l am so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you and family l feel your loss and yes it does ache like hell, but hopefuly time will heal . Memories are golden in your heart forever. Tybrax, Tyra, Brax in heaven Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
foxy0711 Posted September 7, 2004 Share Posted September 7, 2004 Thanks to foxy for sending me the link to Petloss.com *hugs* No worries mischeif maker, I hope it can help you in some way Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
goldenpup Posted September 10, 2004 Share Posted September 10, 2004 (edited) I feel for you I wish you all the best :D I know what you are going through..all to well, it hurts like hell and you just feel like screaming and balling your eyes out forever and ever...but then you realise that it wont help even though you wish it would and everyday you wake up hoping it was just some horrible dream and that your baby will just walk through the door and give you a kiss......and then when reality hits once again you just start crying and crying... and then you stop suddenly stop...and know that they are in a better place where they will always have food..and water and be able to do anything they want....and not have any rules or restrictions binding them..and that all their pain is suddlenly gone and will stay away without any horrible medications and needles and needles and tiring drives to the vet... even though we keep thinking in our minds that the best place for them is here on earth..in our hearts and souls we know that they are in the best place ever.... even though we tend to think we have got over the mourning process....we never have and never will, we only have to think of one funny thing that your beloved pet did and it all comes back.....and then the whole process repeats itself. im sorry for the long rant... its just the way I feel and what I have been through and Im sure all pet owners have been to I sincererly feel for you in everyway possible. :D Edited September 10, 2004 by goldenpup Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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