Carpe Noctem Posted April 27, 2008 Share Posted April 27, 2008 A little over 11 years ago I rescued a young BC pup whose owner used the kick it till it worked training method. She was so soft blind Freddy could see she was never going to respond to aggression or the old steel cap. This fine upstanding master of the land asked me to take er out the back and get rid of her. I did, straight under the tonneau cover of my old ute. Tess has traveled a lot with me over the years, she didn’t make it as much of a working dog, never really had the heart for it, didn’t really achieve a lot of things, but she was always there. She was always in line at dinner time, always met me at the gate, always kept the top step warm, and ALWAYS met strangers with a wag and a smile. Sadly she often played second fiddle to louder more in your face dogs, often dogs she had helped raise and helped show what’s what around the place grew up to push her around. But she never seemed to be put out by the fuss made over the other dogs, she was just always there, always around, always letting you know she cared, and always so gentle. Every afternoon Tess would take it upon herself to check on the stock around here, I never asked he to do it but she sure seemed to enjoy it. She would set off down to the bottom troughs, down to the dam and then the creek line, and back via one of the back paddocks. She was always back by dinner unless there was a problem in the paddock. More than once I went out to see where she was only to find a calf in trouble or a fence busted. She was never there when I found the trouble and was back on the top stem when I got home, but if she wasnt home by dinner you could hang your hat on a problem with the stock. On ANZAC day the top step was vacant at feed time. I went down her track and couldn’t see anything amiss, I went down to the trough,it was full, the dam was fine, could not see a problem calf and what I could see of the fences were all ok. The step was still vacant when i got home. I called, I bashed food bowls, I fed the other dogs and no Tessie. Next morning the top step was cold, no Tess. On the horse looking round the whole property... No Tess, onto the neighbors ... no sign of her... Neighbors out on Quad Bikes, whole day on horseback... No sign of her. Two more nights of cold empty top steps and two more days of searching and still no Tess. I can only assume she found a snake and went to a quiet lonely place to lie down, or perhaps her time came and she wanted to make sure she could find a place to keep and eye on her stock, I wish I knew. Things are not the same simply because for the last eleven years SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN HERE. She may not have been much of a working dog but she was a damned good mate and I miss her. Saddest thing in my heart right now, my last words to her were not good by, were not thanks, were not even all that kind. You see I was using a chainsaw and my old mate was barking at it, trying to bite the log I was cutting, my last words to a mate of 11 years.. "For **** sake will you go away ..." I guess she did, boy I miss her. Sleep well Tessie you can stand down now I promise to check the cattle every day for you... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
peibe Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 Boy that is sad I hope you find her and can put her to rest I hope you forgive yourself too, she could not of understood what you said RIP Tess Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DeerhoundLover Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 I am so very sorry for your loss. She will be waiting for you at the bridge. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
White Shepherd mom Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 Saddest and yet most heartwarming story I've read in a long time. You gave Tess 11 years of love, acceptance and companionship. You saved her from her living hell and gave her heaven and for that she was always there for you. Don't take it all away with thoughts of one harsh word. You just keep the good memories because I am certain that's all Tess thought of when she went off. Thank you for sharing beautiful Tess's story with us. I am so sorry she is no longer with you. Rest in Peace Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 That was a beautiful piece of writing. I am sorry your little mate didn't come home.sometimes it works like that. R I P Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carlibud Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 RIP Tessie Hope you find her I lost my little girl Carli on Tuesday and me too ,the last words I said Will you go away and stop be being a pain, she was biting my feet as I was going in the door, I'll always regret that , she was only doing what she always did, to try and get us to play with her. Dont be upset because it doesn't change things and they do know we loved them anyway. Hugs to you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
springdog Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 My thoughts are with you at this sad time, the love that you gave Tess and she gave you is priceless. Your heart is broken but the wonderful memories are yours to keep forever and ever. RIP Dear Tess Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
baifra Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 My heart is breaking for you right now. What a beautiful soul Tess sounded like. RIP old girl, rest easy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dogdogdog Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 Go rest on the step at Tess. Your owner will eventually meet up with again. How could they not. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crits'N'Bits Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 run free sweet girl Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Georgie-boy Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 Saddest and yet most heartwarming story I've read in a long time. You gave Tess 11 years of love, acceptance and companionship. You saved her from her living hell and gave her heaven and for that she was always there for you. Don't take it all away with thoughts of one harsh word. You just keep the good memories because I am certain that's all Tess thought of when she went off. Thank you for sharing beautiful Tess's story with us. I am so sorry she is no longer with you. Rest in Peace Tess. Ditto.....RIP Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Clover Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 How heartbreaking, you will be in my thoughts. RIP Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Staffyluv Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 I am so sorry... I hope you find her but I am sure she is watching over you and her stock. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MelodysMum Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 What a beautiful tribute to an amazing dog! Thank you for sharing Tess with us. I am praying you will find out what happened to her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bob Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 I don't often visit the Bridge. I am glad I did today. Thank you for sharing Tess. Regards, Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cavNrott Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 Rest In Peace Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eileen Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 That's very sad. RIP Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bommy Posted April 28, 2008 Share Posted April 28, 2008 RIP Tess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~Harminee~ Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 I hope you find her, even if it is to lay her to rest Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Muttaburra Posted May 3, 2008 Share Posted May 3, 2008 Carpe Noctem, so very sorry to hear of your sad loss of Tessie. Please don't waste a minute of precious memories on your words to her, she like, lots of other dogs, get told to stop an unwanted behaviour, and they are quite capable of knowing this is simply a "correction" not a command to leave the fold, a small part of their overall happy "tapestry of life" with you that they know they were a special part of. You saved her from a terrible fate, and she found a place with you where she could feel cared for and have a role in life that was good for her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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