Joey Rocks My World

thankyou also i just cant stop crying all the time and she hasnt even gone yet!

thankyou every one once again, you have all been very supportive in this hard time atm and to Hesapandabear for all those verses, THEY are so beautiful. iim haviing a very hard time atm with it all, and im making myself very sick over iit.. and im worried joey will pine for her and not cope..im worried i won't either HEr eyes look so glassy lately and shes not smiling much....and i thiink that sign is almost here.. I think i will be makiing a decision with the next 2 weeks....i just have to get the courage...im almost th ere now.... ii just want this all to end..its killing me as well i feel for any of you out there going through a similar time or to those who just have been through this recently... my heart feels so heavy and im finding myself having anxiety attacks over this...

oh i am crying still.. when i read this post oriiginally the other day, i cried and couldn't respond...and i'm still at loss for the right words to say.... The pain of loss is so unbearable...i have to go through it myself very soon... thinking of you at such a very hard time. love julie-annexx

oh i am soo very sorry to hear that..:rolleyes: i can feel your pain... not sure what else to say but big hugs to you...xxx

thankyou guys just one other thiing......is it possible to get a vet to come to your house to do it? so its done at home and not in a vet clinic, so its more homely and comfortable..

just wanted to say.. i appreciated all the 'responses' last time i posted,i don't expect them all again..just wanted to get this feeling off my chest....cause i feel like its suffocating me atm...

some of you may know from my on and off post bout my old Jenna..how we just playing a waiting game ...and i've been waiting for a 'sign' to let her go... ;) ironicaLLY shes been the best ive ever seen her, has lost heaps of weight, looking fit, not limping anymore......and yet shes dying.. I did a recent post asking for thoughts bout when do i know?? and you guys said to me, ' you will know when'' Well no major changes since i posted that.... but i think ive been in denial bout it all and not wanted to see the 'changes' either.. the other day while she was eating her tea, i was watching her, and the 'lump' that had been so small in the beginning is now ' very huge' in fact her tail stands out a bit, which hadnt before... shes been having some restless nights of late..and getting very snappy with joey, which she never has previously.... so ive been thinking over and over...shall i do it before its too late and she is at her worst I think i will very soon, when i can muster the courage... my usual vets are pretty good, but have been told there a very special vet in Balhana 'Helen' in South Australia..... that we should take jenna to, when we make the decision.... apparently shes very intune with dogs and just is meant to be extra understanding in that area...she also can arrange for a cremation... We not sure yet bout ...cremation versus burial....????? we buried my rabbit few weeks ago, so not sure if to do that with jenna.. in the past , i used to take my other dogs to the vets, and let them do it and walk away. but this time im going to do something proper for my 'jenna... im also scared to do it, that joey will fret badly, hes such a very senstive soul! :D The worse thing is...that the longer i prolong thiis, its keeping me a emotiional wreak ..just the waiting around and looking at her all the time.... this pic of her and joey holding hands..

How do i thank all you guys who reponded/adviced/suggested things/sent me links/shared stories/experiences!!! and wrote such big lengthy responses! To all of you, THANKYOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART Well as you all said, she will hopefully let me know when, and i will be looking for those signs before she deteriorates too much... Atm , she is not that bad, just losing weight and lacks spirit... Life goes on for the moment Thankyou CK9 for all those links!! haven't had time to look into them properly yet, but will xx

thats a lovely photo Jo thanks gracesmum heres a pic of jenna, but she has lost more weight since this pic shes not always like she looks in the photo..most times she looks lifeless in her eyes

Thank you Jo and sorry to hear bout ur dane We can't even have jenna tumour removed its in a bad place and cause of her age... thinking positive for your dog tho!!

Well my sweet old jenna, was diagnosed with cancer, a fews months ago now.. it's not meant to be an aggressive one, and the vet said, she will be fine for some time...just to keep her out as much pain as possible and love her heaps.... so have got her on antiflamortries and she seems happy enough still.... most of the time she sleeps except when i take her for a walk, and she still gets over excited over that!! and doesn't even go lame anymore!! so life continues as normal as possible in the meantime... Today my husband says to me, have you noticed jenna's losing weight rapidly?? i have, but try to not see it.... ironically, the vets have been nagging me in the past to make her lose weight, and now shes is, but shes dying!! Hubby says its not good, shes losing weight so fast, and we might have to take it seriously now... I'm trying to justify shes ok atm..but maybe she isnt...maybe the painkillers are just disquising the 'real' state shes in?? i haven't seen enough evidence to take action yet..but is it cause i'm trying to live in denial??? i did that before to another dog of mine with cancer and kept her alive for 2 extra years, cause i didn't want to suffer myself!! I just dont know when to, am i just delaying it?? i'm not going to try other options at this stage of it..she nearly 15 and has bad athritis as well.....if she was younger i would do 'anything' for her I know you guys cant tell me when...i just need some thoughts

thankyou, sweet people i still keep looking at her enclosure

oh soo sorry to hear bout ur budgie as well Fiddo:( you feel like you missing part of your life when they leave you.....its a horrible feeling in your gut and heart..

We lost our bunny unexpectantly this afternoon, she died in my arms, at the vets... she was only three and a half. we buried her in a pretty pillow case, with a bunch of wild flowers and i placed a feather on her for her spirit to be carried to bunny heaven on... ive can't stop crying for this grumpy fat rabbit!! i already miss you sooo much my Bilby R.I.P

still thinking of you and ollie

my old jenna is dying of cancer and until it affects her signifiately, and we need to pts, we have got her on Rimadyl... its made her feel better and she is currently full of life again, she has had no side effects as of yet, so its been positive for us shes even able to go on walks, as before her athritis was making it too hard for her to go to far. i'm aware, thiis drug is not for all dogs of course

having a DOG, thats just be diagnosed with cancer as well(on her rump too) , i wish you and Ollie all the best, with all what you are doing with treatments etc...!!! thinking of you both. julie-annexx

ok, having had heaps of experince in this area, with my old jenna,, i highly recommend... :D Catrophen injections!! they are fantastic!!! done it with my last old arthritic dog as well, and with my young joey, when he injured his legs recently. Gluscosamine tablets, altho they take a while to work ;) apple cider vinegar, i used to use it on my old horses too, was very effective, took a while to work...most natural things do... and altho its a drug, and a quite 'contriversal 'and expensive, jennas on Rimadyl, shes really perked up on these, but look into them first, as they not adviceable in some case...i can justify their use atm. I relate to dogs getting old and getting age related things, like athritis(sp?) im enjoying and learning what other people use, natural or vet drugs...from your post

hi guys agaiin ive just accepted it and got over it now i just read the account wrong, still the tablets are expensive arn't they! but if they help her, then thats the most important thing :D i think what i was thinking, and same with my hubby, was that we already got the results that day on my mobile...and the VET just said, if we wanted it more clarified and to talk it over(since i was in tears and in the car at the time), then to come in on the following monday. we origianally was just going to turn up on the day, and see if she had a min, but decided to do the right thing, and make a app, in case she was busy. she did talk to us very thoughly, and was a long time.... she did say something to the effect, that she was surprisedthat we hadn't brought jenna back in? and i just said, well it wasnt worth it to bring her in again..what else could they do, than what they had done already. maybe it was a Dispensing fee...i don't care now....12 dollars is nothing. I must say the original vet that rang us, was not the one we saw on the monday, but she had communicated with the original one bout it all. Jenna is currently ok, first night she went on tablets, she was very restless all night, didnt sleep like she always does....maybe they made her bit sick. but shes ok,evena little more brighter, if anything. will just take it one day at a time. and we making her time, even more special now, that we have time to prepare for it. thanks for all ur comments and concerns.xxx

ok dragged the invoice out of my hang bag and studying it now properly it says consultation...12.50 medication rimadlyl 100 mg..20 of them....62.75 plus tax of 6.84 making it a total of 75.25... so was i wrong..its how much 20 tablets were/? shes not on full dosage all at once im embarraseed if i told you guys the wrong facts

hmmm didn't think bout that, will look at the invoiuce again, now im bit less stressed.... its for rimadyl..and theres quite a lot of them...will get back to u on this thanks been reading everyones else comments, thanks you..maybe im acting irationally atm will go look at the invoice prpperly...

hya guys... :D i think atm im just being silly as a result of the jennas news the other day, and cause ive got very bad hayfever. well what do you think and please be honest with me about this, no matter how i'm feeling atm :D RECENTly we have been to vets a fair bit between joey and jenna, and have spent quite a lot there, as you do :D ....fair enuff they are a business and not charity,,i understand that. Well when they rang us up the the other day to tell us the bisopsy results, we wernt home and they rang us on my mobile and expained the facts.bout ten mins. said if we wanted it expalined clearer and i didn't understand what they were saying, and i didn't as i was crying heaps...to come in on the following monday and see a vet and have a bit of a chat. so we thort that was the best thing to do, in case we were overeacting etc... the receptionist said to come in btween 4,45 and 5pm....so thinking it wasnt a official app, just a quick rundown on the tests, we went, didn't take jenna of course. well this vet is very good, and does chat heaps and is very thorough and goes into a lot of details bout it and options etc what can be done...we did ask a few questions too. but prob 2o mins later, we walk out and go to pay for the pain killers and the account comes to bout 75 dollars!! SO We were charged for a app by the looks as well. my hubbys said oh well we now know a bit more than in the phone call....cant do much they charged so much for that info. we like the vets, they are very good, no vent bout that in itself just was surprised at the extra cost when i thort we were just going in for a few mins just to go over the phone call. years ago, i had a vet that would do lots of little extras for me and my dogs, i think it was cause we were always there LOL..and had spent heaps with them and we got friendly with them over that time. i guess they got to make the profit and pay the wages ect.....its a country clinic too. so am i over reacting with this??? :rolleyes: think im just being over emotional with everything atm

hi guys, its a soft tissue myxosarcoma....on her rump it may not spread, but they don't know or guaratee that they said we could seek more advice from a cancer specialist vet, or go down the holistic path or just let her be, considering her age, and make her as comfortable as possible for the time being...... we noticed she was yelping yesterday a few times....so they have put her back on antiflamotories, but not a strong dosage. thats all i can tell you guys atm... they said to bring her back in the next few weeks for a another check on it.

i just want to say one thing, if jenna was younger and didn't have her bad athritis, i would consider and try everything, i would never give up, no matter what...i just don't feel atm, i want to drag her through lots of things at this stage...

thankyou for that i will see what the vet says tonight exactly.........i do beliueve in approaching holistic ways. been there myself... just not sure with jenna yet, what road i will take. i'll pm you if i need ur help. thanks from the bottom of my heart xx