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Thanks Sandra777, I definitely know this is not about me and all I want is what's best for her. It's just the thoughts of 'what if'? What if that wiggle of the stump means I'm okay or what if I go outside and she has eaten all the food in her dish? I guess I'm just hoping for a miracle.

Hi there, Not sure that anyone can give me the answer but I just feel like I need to talk - hope I don't go on too much. I think I may be getting close to making the worse decision of my life. My beautiful Rotty girl, Alli, who is 8 1/2 is really starting to struggle. She's had arthritis for a while now with various meds not making much difference at all. Admittedly, she is carrying too much weight and I know this is my fault but please don't hang me. I guess I have been killing her with kindness as she's really gone through a lot in her time. She is 5 years in remission from lymphosarcoma which is just amazing and I'm so lucky to have had her for this long. Now the arthritis seems to be getting worse and with winter upon us, I'm not sure she will be able to go on much longer. She's finding it harder to get up and down, every now and then one of her legs will give way, her back end looks as though its 'drooping' and I can see that her muscle is wasting away. She has also had incontinence problems off and on but I've noticed this has been worse over the last two days. She hasn't eaten much for two days but I did start her on a strict diet yesterday and I know she's not happy about this. Once again, I know I should have started before now. I hear people say that you know when the time has come. Is this the time? Is she telling me that she's tired and it's time to give her her wings? I know that the decision can only be mine but just some thoughts and experiences would be appreciated. I'm actually waiting for my (her) vet to ring me and I know he won't tell me what to do but I just need to talk. Thanks everyone.