The PM

Well it is 1 year tomorrow since you left us Cass and life still doesn't feel right.Poor little Tia is so lonely now that Ducky has gone as well and she has no one to chase around the yard whenever she wants.She still goes looking for you if she hears your name in conversation. You are still helping me as well.Two weeks ago in hospital when they were cutting bits out of me (renal biopsy) I thought of nothing but the best times I had with you,to take my mind off all the bits and pieces being stuck into my back, and the hour and a bit seemed like only 10 minutes (ok maybe it was the light sedation! ) and I came through ok. Will be thinking of you all day tomorrow and will be in the garden with you at 11am.

Well, its been two weeks now since Cass passed. The hardest two weeks I have experienced in a very long time. It is surprising how many little things that you normally don't even think of,remind you of good times. Yesterday afternoon, I was able to smile at one of these memories.I found a photo of Cass taken not long after I got her.In this photo she was peeking out from behind a lounge, and it took me a minute or so to remember that she was hiding from my brothers rabbit.This rabbit was extremely territorial and saw Cass as a threat and would charge at her whenever he saw her.As a result, for many years Cass would hide behind that lounge when visiting my brother, just to make sure the rabbit wasn't around.She would also hide whenever the vacuum cleaner would come on or I turned the hose on in the backyard.She would howl at the top of her voice whenever the phone rang.All good memories. I also got a surprise the other morning.Every dog owner knows the shape of their dogs head, ears and nose when viewed from behind and above (like when you go far a walk).Last Friday morning, I switched on a light I don't normally switch on and a microwave steamer I left on the bench the previous night cast a shadow that was exactly the same shape as Cass' head. Pure coincidence of course but I had said "Good Morning Cass" before I knew it. I'd like to thank those that have replied to this thread, emailed or PM'd me with messages of support, you have all helped. Most of all, thank you Cass.Missing you like you wouldn't beleive.

Hello all, Please bare with me, this is my first post here and is very difficult to write. My beautiful 14 year old, 3 legged rottweiller Cassie died very suddenly at 11am yesterday morning. I had her from when she was about 9 months old.A flatmate of my brother owned her and was going to have her put to sleep because he was moving.This was one of the best things that has ever happened to me, as Cass became my best friend. I suffer from severe psoriaisis all over my body but mostly on my face.Because of this I am also depressed quite often and Cass knew this and wouldn't leave my side when I had problems. I can honestly say that I came very close to doing something very silly about 6 years ago and the only reason I didn't was because Cass stopped me....she somehow knew. She was also a brave girl.Two and a half years ago she went lame in her front left leg.This turned out to be a form of bone cancer , which we found before it had spread.She lost her leg, but when I bought her home from hospital after 4 days she was so pleased she jumped out of the car.After a month or so she was back chasing her mates Tia (a terrier x) and Ducky (a duck!) as if nothing was wrong and loving every second of it. Just a fortnight ago she chased Ducky (playfully...don't worry!)and ended up with a mouthful of down feathers.She spent the next 10 minutes trying to get them out of her mouth. I came home from work yesterday morning at 10:30 and Cass and Tia where both at the front door waiting, with stump and tail wagging like you wouldn't belive, as they do every morning.I gave them their breakfast and sat down to read the papers.I heard an odd sound and saw Cass on the ground struggling.I knew she was in trouble and I don't know if she heard me saying goodbye and that I loved her.She stopped breathing after about a minute. Today just didn't seem real.Cass not under her blanket in the morning, Cass not at the front door when i got home, Cass not trying to get my food off me, Cass not coming over to the couch to give me a dog kiss . Sorry about the length of this post.I don't know who to talk to and I just hurt so much. Goodbye my girl.Goodbye my friend.Goodbye Cassie.